Usuku lwenhlanhla
Kunombhalo ophawulekayo umlobi waseScandinavia uJan Eckholm "Tutta Karlsson, owokuqala nowodwa, uLudwig weshumi nesine nabanye." Lowo owufunda mhlawumbe ukhumbula indaba ethinta inhliziyo yenzonyane uLudwig Larsen nenkukhu uTutta Karlsson. Ngemva kokusakazwa kokuqala, lapho uTanya Romanenko eba iTutta Larsen, izilaleli zase zivele zibonwa kuphela ngokuphathelene naleli gama elingavamile, elingalibaleki. I-Life Tutty - Tanya ngezindlela ezithile kufana nesiphetho samaqhawe wezindaba. Mhlawumbe lokhu ngisho nesiprofetho. Lapha konke kunzima kakhulu, kudideka futhi ... kubuhlungu. Okwenzekanga empilweni kaTanya: impumelelo yokudala, ukukhula komsebenzi, izindaba ezithandekayo zothando, ukuhlukunyezwa kwamadoda, ukulahlekelwa kwengane, kanye neminyaka ende yedwa. "Nakuba ngizalwa futhi ngakhulela eDonbas, angizange ngizizwe ngiphakamiso esifundazweni saseMoscow esizikhukhumezekile. Ngangihlale ngiphupha ngokuphila nokusebenza kuleli dolobha, ngakhuthazwa yizifundo ezizayo eyunivesithi engcono kakhulu ezweni - i-MSU, futhi iqiniso lokuthi ngingathola ithuba lokuba yingxenye yedolobha elikhulu, ngamathuba alo amathemba namathemba. Ngake ngifake ukuphoqa, ngizizwe nginamahloni, ngicabange ngezinkimbinkimbi zokungaqondakali okungaqondakali. Into eyangihluphayo kwakuyizwi eliqinile lase-Ukraine. Kodwa abangane basehostela abavela kimi ngokushesha bamkhiphela ngaphandle. Futhi ilula kakhulu, kodwa indlela eyinkimbinkimbi - ihlehlisiwe, ikhonjiwe. Ngempela ngonyaka inkulumo esithambile yavuthwa ngendlela engaziwa. Ngokuqondene nezinkinga ezifuywayo, ngakho-ke, mina nginelutho. Njengabaningi, kwakungekho izindlu ezijwayelekile, ama-rags amahle, hhayi imali eyanele yokudla. Ngakho-ke ngemuva kwegceke lenkantolo - ngo-1991. Izindleko ezinkulu kubafundi zazingavamile. Ngikhumbula ukuthi mina nabangane bami sasihlala ehostele izinsuku ezimbalwa sihlezi itiye nge-breadcrumbs. Kuhle. Khona-ke, lapho ngiqala ukuhola, futhi ngokujwayelekile noma kancane kancane ngidla, khona-ke amasonto ambalwa ahlushwa ama-stomachache nazo zonke izinhlobo zezifo-ngakho umzimba unqunywe ekudleni kwabantu. Nganginamahloni ngokumangalisayo - ngaya ngokushesha kwelinye lamakhono afisa kakhulu emhlabeni - abezindaba. Futhi ehhovisi lezindaba zezomnotho nokukhangisa, ngaleso sikhathi - ukuvivinya umzimba kukhulu kakhulu. Kodwa ngakhetha lokhu kuqeqeshwa hhayi ngengozi: umama wasichitha konke ukuphila kwakhe ekuphatheni kwezomnotho, waba ngummeli wokuqala wezindaba kuleli lizwe, wawasekela obala abavukuzi abashisayo emaphephandabeni, wayebhekwa njengomlomo wezinyunyana zabasebenzi, osebenzela izinhlangano zezindaba eziningana, kuhlanganise nesiSwidi. Ngilandela ezinyathelweni zakhe. Yiqiniso, ukukhangisa kuleli zwe kwakusanda kuqalwa. Kwangibonakala kimi ukuthi esikhathini esizayo bekuyoba okuthembisayo, umsebenzi wezimali. Ngaphezu kwalokho, nganginenhlanhla kabili - ngangisemuva kokungena kwabaseSoviet Union, abangena mahhala. Kakade ngonyaka olandelayo, emva kokukhishwa, izakhamuzi zase-Ukraine zenza njengabafokazi kanye negatsha elikhokhelwayo kuphela. Yiqiniso, umndeni wethu wawungenayo leyo mali. Ngakho-ke, eMoscow angizange ngibe khona, futhi njengokungathi impilo yami yesikhathi esizayo yakhiwa, aziwa. "
Usuku lokuphulwa komthetho womphakathi
"Ngaqala ukusebenza ngomnyaka wesibili. Ekuqaleni, kanye nabangani, bebehlala emnyangweni wokukhangisa wezinye izinkampani. Kodwa ngokushesha waqaphela ukuthi ukukhangisa - akuyona eyami. Futhi isiphetho sesigameko senele. Enye yezinhlelo zomculo eziholela wagula, kwakungekho ozohamba emoyeni. Bangibeka. Ngakho ngaba yizindaba ezihamba phambili zomculo ku-BIZ TV, wabe esefika ku-MTV. Futhi wahamba-waya. Ngomqondo wangempela, waba yindawo yokuqala yaseRussia. Thina nalaba bafana kwakungowokuqala ukuletha ukuxhumana komuntu okubukhoma esikrinini. Ngaphambi kwalokho, kuphela izikhulumi - "izinhloko zokukhuluma" - zisefreyimu. Ngamanye amazwi, saba umethuli we-TV, ongazange asakaze, - wakhuluma nezilaleli ngolimi olulodwa, kuphela emoyeni. Sasizivumela ngokuphelele konke: ukugqoka, ukuhleka, ukudabuka nokukhala. Kwakuyinto enhle kakhulu, ezithakazelisayo, ukuthi njengoba umsebenzi wawungabonakali - i-buzz eqhubekayo. Futhi lapho bejabule kanjalo nabo baqala ukukhokha, ngenhlanhla bekungekho umkhawulo! Ekuqaleni sasibhekwa njengezingane ezisetshenziselwa ukuhlola, indawo ethile yokudlala, eyasakazwa ngomlayezo owodwa wokuxoxisana: "Kuhlaka uvumelekile konke. Into esemqoka - ungafungi futhi ungabonisi imbongolo engenalutho. " Ngakolunye uhlangothi, lokhu kuyinhlanganisela, ngakolunye uhlangothi - okuncane. Sasizibonakalise thina, kodwa senza amaphutha amaningi. Emoyeni, abantu babevame ukubiza abantu abangafaneleki, futhi iziqalekiso zaqhamuka, futhi indawo yawela esihlalweni, futhi amakhamera akhohlwe ukuvala, futhi sasingazi ngakho. Ngakho baqhubeka beshayisana ngokuthi "kakade ngaye, mayelana nentombazane". Kodwa empeleni zonke izinhle zokusakazwa bukhoma. Futhi uma uchwepheshe, uma ulimi lwakho selumisiwe kahle futhi ungakhuphuki ephaketheni lamagama, sekupholile. Kubalulekile - esimweni esibucayi ukungabi namahloni, hhayi ukulahleka, hhayi ukukhathazeka. Khona-ke noma yikuphi ukuhlazeka ungazihlanganisa wena. Sasiveza ngesibindi umbono wethu ngabazombangazwe, nakuba babengenalo izinkolelo zezombusazwe. Ngonyaka ka-1992 ngachoboza ikhala lami, ngo-1993 ngenza i-tattoo yokuqala. Ungacabanga ukuthi kubonakala kanjani? Njengokwephulwa kwazo zonke izinkambiso, ukunyatheliswa kwemikhuba yokuziphatha, imibuso! Lokho uDeveli noDeveli engabonakali kuhlaka - futhi bald, futhi ngezinyosi zensimbi, nasependeni lempi. Ngangingakaze ngibe nesithakazelo embonweni womphakathi nangokunambitheka komphakathi. "
Usuku lokulahlekelwa okunonya
Ngesikhathi sokuqala ngishada ngisacabanga (umyeni wokuqala kaTatyana ungumgadli weqembu le-IFK uMaxim Galstyan). Sonke sahlala iminyaka eyisishiyagalombili. Kwakungubudlelwane obude, obunzima, obuphela ekuhlukaneni ngokuphelele komunye nomunye. Imizwa isiphelile, ubudlelwane buphelile. Nakuba kwakungokuhlangenwe nakho okuhle. Uma kungenjalo, namhlanje ngizobe ngihluke - nginezinto eziphambene neziphukuphuku, ngihlale ngigijimela endaweni ethile, ngifuna ukubonakala ngingcolile, futhi ngingekho enye into, njalo ngakha amadoda, ngesaba into engeke yenziwe, ngesifiso sokuba njalo kuqala, okwesibili. Ngamagama, ukuphikisana okungadingekile kubusa kunoma ubani. Wahamba ngezinkinga ezingadingekile, edonsela phansi, echitha isikhathi hhayi kulabo bantu. " Eminyakeni eyisishiyagalombili eyedlule ekuphileni kweTutta, kwenzeka inhlekelele. Abesifazane bayakuqonda lesi sihogo. Ngesonto lama-32 lokukhulelwa, uTatiana kwadingeka aphumelele ekubelethweni okufakelwayo ngokuphambana kwangempela, imizamo, ubuhlungu obungacabangi. Ngakolunye uhlangothi, wabeletha njengowesifazane ojwayelekile obelethwe, ngakolunye uhlangothi - wayazi ukuthi kwakungekho ingane. Ngaleso sikhathi odokotela bathi le nkinga ingatholakala kakhulu ekuqaleni, ngesonto nge-17, kodwa isimo sangempela sezinto isiguli satshelwa kuphela ngo-32. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, unina wayazi ukuthi ingcwaba laliyiyiphi ingane. Ngemuva kokuba kube nokucindezeleka okude kwesikhathi eside. Ngangingafuni ukuhlala, nakuba kwakungacabangi ukuzibulala. Khona-ke kwakungekho lutho: akukho mqondo, akukho mzwelo, ayikho imizwa, ayikho izifiso. UTanya wafa kabi - kokubili ngokokuziphatha nangokomzimba. Sekuyisikhathi eside ngisesibhedlela, umama wayehlala nami njalo. Ukushisa kugcinwe ama-40, ama-droppers njalo, imithi ... Uyachaza: "Umzimba wonke wawa." Odokotela abakhulu kakhulu, umama nenkolo basize ukuba basinde. Abaningi bakholelwa ukuthi lesi sigameko senzeke ngenxa yesimo sengqondo esinengqondo, esingenakuziphendulela wena nomntanakho. Okokuqala - ukubonakaliswa okubukhoma kwesisu esisodwa, amahlumela okuhlala unomphela kuze kube yinyanga yesishiyagalombili, i-tonic ephezulu ne-jeans enebhande elincane, ekhombisa umntwana ozayo njengokungathi kuboniswa. U-Tanya akavumelani neze. "Ukukhulelwa kwaba injabulo enkulu, engangiphupha ngokuhlanganyela nezwe lonke, ngifuna ukukhombisa wonke umuntu ukuthi kuhle kangakanani ukulindela umntwana. Futhi lo wesifazane osesimweni akuyona into ekhululekile, hhayi embi, engaguli. Uhle. Ngangizizwa nginempilo, angizange ngibhekane ne-toxicosis, kwakukhona amandla amakhulu namandla kimi! Emhlabathini awuzange uhambe, uqhubekile, yonke indawo ixhomeke. Futhi ngangingesabi amehlo amabi, amehlo amabi. Abalingiswa abaningi badutshulwa emaphethelweni ama-glossies esimweni esithakazelisayo: Demi Moore, Pamela Anderson. Futhi akukho lutho. Kungenzeka kwenye. Kulula, mina nomyeni wami asikwazanga ukunikeza ingane lokho akufanele ngempela. Lapha izinyane liye lazinqumela ukungaveli ekukhanyeni. Wonke umuntu ongavumeli uNkulunkulu awele esimweni esifana neyami - ukucindezeleka okubi nokubi, ngiyakwazi ukusikisela indlela engcono kakhulu yokuphuma: ngawo wonke amandla akho, uthinte isundu sakho ekhanda (noma embongolo) bese uthi ngokuthula: "Yebo akufanele ube namahloni, Ezibizayo? Hlanganisa ngokushesha bese uvuka. " Uma umuntu ehamba yedwa, ephefumula, akukho lutho olumzwisa ubuhlungu - kuphela lokhu kubalulekile ukumbonga kakhulu uNkulunkulu. Yiqiniso, kubi uma ulahlekelwa umsebenzi wakho, uhlupheka uma le ndoda ikushiya ... Kodwa, kholwa mina, lokhu akude neze into embi kakhulu. Kodwa uma lesi sifo singenakunqanda ngokuphelele, futhi kakade wena ngokwakho, ngaphandle kosizo, awukwazi ukuvuka, lapho uzwa ukuthi uba umthwalo, futhi akukho ndlela yokuphuma - ke ekugcineni uqala ukuqonda ukuthi kuyini - injabulo yangempela yokuba khona. Kungukuthi usaphila nje. Futhi abanye, kholwa kimi, ngokuqinisekile kuzolungiswa, ngoba uNkulunkulu unikeza umuntu ngokulinganayo njengoba angakwazi ukuma. "
Usuku lokuzalwa lukaLuka
Ukusuka enhlekeleleni kuya enjabulweni akuyona kude kakhulu - UTanya uzothola maduzane ngalokhu: ubuhlobo obusha nomunye umuntu buyobuya futhi kube nenjabulo yokuxhumana futhi, futhi ngo-2005 indodana yakhe uLuka yabonakala. Ukuthokoza kwakhe komama, wathatha isikhathi eside emehlweni abantu, kepha ukukhulelwa nokubeletha kwakulula ngokumangalisayo. Futhi injabulo, mhlawumbe, yayiyophelele uma lowo muntu ehlala nabo. Kodwa washiya, futhi usuku lokuzalwa lukaTutta lomuntu siqu, lowesifazane, injabulo lahlehliswa iminyaka eminingana. "Ngesikhathi lapho indodana yami izalwa khona, ngiyeke ukucasula abantu. Zonke izintukuthelo, ngisho nangaphezulu, ngamadoda, esikhathini esidlule esikhathini esidlule. Ngomunye wabo ngiyabonga kakade ukuthi babesondelene, nokuthi ngamunye wabo unezinto eziningi ezikhanyayo, ezinomusa, zangempela. Yebo, ukufundisa izifundo ezinzima kubonga kakhulu. Ngabiza indodana yami uLuka, ngoba, okokuqala, ibizo leBhayibheli, futhi okwesibili, yilo igama lomunye wabakhulukazi bakhe. Lesi sikhathi ukukhulelwa kwaba lula. Ngazalwa, ngaphandle kwezinkinga futhi ngokushesha kakhulu. Lapho indodana yami ifika kimi okokuqala futhi ibeke isisu sayo, ayizange ikhale, ayizange ifune noma yini. Ukhulume ngokuthula, ehlaziye into yakhe, eyayiyazi, yaxoxa naye. Nginobaba asiboni futhi singakhulumi. Akafiki nakuLuka noma. Nakuba, mhlawumbe, kuleso simo, sobabili sinecala. Ngiyabonga uNkulunkulu ukuthi lo muntu empilweni yami kwenzeka, ngoba naye senze umfana onjalo. "
Usuku lwe-Soul Equinox
Ngomyeni wakhe wamanje u-Valery Tanya uhlangane ohlelweni lwe-TV "Imfihlakalo Yempumelelo". Wafika neqembu lakhe lomculo evela eSaratov, kodwa esikhundleni senhloko-dolobha wanqoba inhliziyo yomethuli. Kwaphela isikhathi eside lo mbhangqwana wafihla uthando olusenqalile. Futhi hhayi ngoba besaba ukukhangiswa - besaba ukwesaba injabulo. Ngemva konyaka banquma ukushada. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, uTanya akazange abe nomunye usuku oluthile oluthinta injabulo, ukuthula, ukubonga. Ekuqaleni, uLuka wathatha upapa omusha ngamandla, ngomona ozwakalayo wengane. Empeleni, kwenzeka ukuthi uValery uyazi ukuthi angabelana kanjani nezingane. Manje bangabangane bangempela. Futhi uma umama kuze kube sebusuku emsebenzini, abesilisa bakhe, ezolile. "Kuhle ukuthi umyeni wami akayena umuntu obonisa ibhizinisi futhi awutholi lutho ngethelevishini lami elingenalutho nomsakazo. Usebenza njengomqondisi wezobuchwepheshe ekhamphani elincane lokukhiqiza. Okokuqala, ngingumkakhe nomama wakhe, uLuka, bese ngimethuli we-TV nomuntu womphakathi. U-Valera uyindoda yangempela, eqinile, efanelekile, nesineke. Yena kithi nangendodana yakhe - ngemuva kwangempela. Futhi ngiyaqhubeka ngishintsha - ukuze kube ngcono. Nakuba ekugcineni uphumule, kubonakala sengathi ngeke uphumelele. Njengoba i-psychoanalyst eyodwa enezethalente ithi: "Injabulo enkulu i-Alzheimer's disease, isifo senhliziyo esicindezelayo. Umuntu ovamile angenelisekile ngokuphelele ngokuphila kwakhe. Ngesikhathi esifanayo, unomqondo okwanele nokuhleka usulu ukuze aphathe konke ifilosofi. " Kuleli hlobo, uTutta Larsen kulindeleke ukuba wanezelwa emndenini. Injabulo empilweni yakhe, ngokungangabazeki, iyoba ngaphezulu.