Iningi labantu lihlelekile ngendlela efanayo - bayathanda futhi bayakwazi ukuchaza cishe konke. Noma yimiphi imicimbi, noma yiziphi izinkinga "zingafakwa emashalofini." Kunezincazelo ezimbalwa ezinjalo ezweni labantu. Kulula ukubona ukuthi, ngokuphendula indaba yakho noma isikhalazo, i-interlocutor ithi: "kungenxa yokuthi ..." noma: "Ngikuxwayisile ..." Futhi, nakuba izincazelo ngokuvamile zinganiki ithuba lokubikezela ikusasa, abantu bayabamba, njengendlela yokuphila. Omunye wale mibuthano uthi "inselele yobudala obuphakathi". Futhi, esondela eminyakeni engama-40, abaningi kubonakala sengathi balahlekelwa ngamakhono abo okubhukuda futhi badinga lokhu kusekelwa. Kuyinkinga yeminyaka engama-40 echaza "intshevu" ehloniphekile, futhi ngemuva kokuhlangenwe nakho kwakhe okujabulisayo - "ku-45 baba berry futhi." Noma hhayi berry - uma ungazange uhlangabezane nenkinga. Yini eyenzeka ngempela kule nkathi? Futhi ngokujwayelekile: ubunzima bephakathi kokuphila - inganekwane noma ngokoqobo? Futhi kwenzeka kanjani ukuthi kuthinte impilo yomndeni? Mayelana nalokhu futhi ukhulume.
U-Anatoly wayehlala nomkakhe iminyaka engu-24. Konke, wathi, wayefana nabantu bonke - basebenze kanzima, bazama, bakhulisa izingane - indodana nendodakazi. Izingane zakhula, indodana yaqeda esikoleni futhi yahamba, indodakazi yakhe kwadingeka ifunde iminyaka emibili, kepha u-Anatoly akayiboni: abangani - abangane - umsebenzi kanye nendlu yakhe. Umkami ulapha. U-Anatoly uyabubula kakhulu - owesifazane omuhle, ohlakaniphile, onentshisekelo. Uyenze umsebenzi njengomphathi omkhulu, futhi cishe akaze abuyele ekhaya. Ngaphambili, lapho abantwana bebancane, kwakungabonakali kakhulu. Kodwa izingane sezikhulile, u-Anatoly akazange asebenze eminyakeni yamuva. Wafika ekhaya, kodwa umkakhe noma engakafiki, noma wayesevele elele. Futhi uma behlangana ekhishini, khona-ke nje kuphela njengomakhelwane endaweni yokuhlala. Umfazi ophethe i-handset waqhubeka nokunikeza "abasebenzi" ukudla, wadla ngokushesha futhi wagijima ekhompyutheni. Ngendlela, kokubili ikhompyutha kanye nethelevishini kwalabo abashadile babe neyabo. Bathi, cishe, babeyohlala iminyaka eyinkulungwane. Kodwa ngandlela-thile u-Anatoly wagula ngesifo. Umkakhe wayenkomfa komunye umuzi, futhi esuka lapho washiya ukuhlola umuntu, noma ukwabelana naye ngokuhlangenwe nakho kwakhe. Indodakazi yami nayo yahamba - eholidini. U-Anatoly wabiza udokotela wesifunda. Bakhuluma. Owesifazane wabuza u-Anatoly mayelana nezimpawu, imithi ekhethiwe, kodwa ngemva kokufunda ukuthi akekho ohlala ekhaya futhi akekho ongakwazi ukunakekela umuntu onokushisa okungama-39.7, wathi: "Ngizoqeda zonke izinselelo ngibuyele." Ngemva kwamahora ambalwa wathatha imithi nezithelo. Ngakho bahlangana. UVlad - ngakho igama lakhe lalingu-elincane kune-Anatoly iminyaka eyishumi. Wayenalo umndeni. Lesi sikhungo asizange sisebenze, khona-ke ukusatshalaliswa, kepha isifo sesifundazwe singathola kanjani umyeni wakhe? Wabuyela ekhaya, enhloko-dolobha, futhi wazinika isikhathi sonke sokusebenza.
Lapho u-Anatoly ehlulwa, wanquma ukubonga udokotela. Ngafunda isimiso somsebenzi, ngithenga izimbali, wangithatha ekhaya. Futhi ngokungalindelekile, yena ngokwakhe, ngemva kokuya ekomishini yetiye, wahlala kwaze kwaba phakathi kwamabili. UVlad wayengumxhumanisi ohlakaniphile, othakazelisayo nokuqonda. U-Anatoly wabelane ngezinkinga zakhe eziningi - futhi waya ekhaya ngomqondo wokukhululeka. Ekhaya akekho owayelindeleke. Umkami wayelele. Ekuseni wambingelela, kodwa waxosha ikhanda lakhe kuphela: amafoni ayeqhekekile. Futhi kusihlwa u-Anatoly waphinde waya kuVlad. Futhi emva kwezinyanga ezimbili wabona ukuthi wayefuna njalo futhi engenakho empilweni yakhe-ithuba lokukhuluma, ukubonisana, ukunakekelwa nokunakekelwa nokuhlanganyela ngokuphendula.
Wazama ukukhuluma nomkakhe izikhathi eziningana, kodwa waphendula umbhalo weselula: "Idivaysi yombhalisi ivaliwe noma ayikho inethiwekhi". Futhi-ke ... wabe esevuma kuVlad ngothando futhi wathi ngenkathi eshadile, kodwa wayekulungele ukulinda. Futhi wathuthela kuye.
... Umkami kuphela ngesonto kamuva waphawula ukuthi u-Anatoly akahlali ebusuku ebusuku. Ekuqaleni, wayekhathazekile ngokuhlukaniswa kwempahla, kodwa hhayi ukuhlukanisa. Kodwa-ke, emva kokuba u-Anatoly afake isicelo enkantolo, umkakhe wayishintsha ngokuphawulekayo ukuziphatha kwakhe. Waqala ukubiza, wahlangana nomyeni wakhe emsebenzini, weza kuye ngesikhathi sakusihlwa. Kufanele sinikeze isikweletu - siziphathe kahle kakhulu futhi sazama ukuchazela u-Anatoly ukungabi namalungelo okuhlukanisa izinhlangothi zombili. Kubonakala sengathi kwakungeyona umuntu, kodwa i-robot. Futhi lapho ngiqaphela ukungapheli kwalokho okwenzekile, kwaphuka. Wakhala, futhi u-Anatoly wabona kuye intombazane, eyake isithandana, eqotho futhi ephilayo. Kodwa ngaqonda ukuthi kwakukhona isihawu kuphela esisele - kimi, kuye, ukuthi baba abafokazi.
Waqala ukubonisana nomqondo wezengqondo ngenxa yecala, ngesonto ngaphambi kokuhlukanisa. Eqaphela ukuthi konke kwakunqunyiwe kakade, u-Anatoly wazama ukuhlaziya: kwenzekani ebuhlotsheni, kungani behluleka ukuyibeka ngaphambi kokuba konke kukhishwe? Lapho umkakhe emkhuza: "Ngazama sonke," waqonda ukuthi uqinisile. Kodwa uma le mizamo yayingeke idideke yibo bonke abantu ebuhlotsheni, uma ngabe umsebenzi awuzange uyidle umkhawulo - kungenzeka ukuthi waphawula ukuthi eceleni kwakhe ngumyeni wakhe, owamdinga ... "Ngiyazi," esho. ekupheleni komhlangano, i-Anatoly, yiyona nkinga yonke yokuphila "...
Ngakho, lokhu kuyinkinga wonke umuntu owaziyo. Izazi zengqondo zichaza imingcele yazo ngezindlela ezahlukene - kusukela eminyakeni engu-37 kuya kwezingu-45. Ngakolunye uhlangothi, ubani owazi ngempela ukuthi leliphi phakathi? Asinikezwa ukubikezela ... Nokho, ngokusho kwemizwa yokuziphendulela yabantu ngesikhathi esithile, babhekana nesipiliyoni sokuthi isigamu sokuphila sidlulile. Kufana nokukhuphuka okude kuze kube phezulu, umuzwa wendiza, wezinyathelo ezingenamkhawulo, okulandelwa ukuqala kokungenakugwemeka phansi. Okuphezulu kudlulisiwe. Akekho ohlala khona kuze kube phakade. Ngakolunye uhlangothi, kusekhona umqondo ocacile wamandla, amandla, umsebenzi. Ngakolunye uhlangothi, kuyaqondakala ukuthi futhi lokhu okuhlangenwe nakho akukwazi ukuphakanyiswa: amandla awanjalo ... Futhi abantu bayakukhuthazelela ngezindlela ezahlukene ...
Sinobunzima ekulahlekelweni kwamandla omzimba nokuheha. Kodwa kunzima nakakhulu ukusinda ekuhlukaneni ngamaphupho kanye nezinkolelo. Kule nkathi ukuthi kukhona ukuqonda lokho u-Yuri Loza akushilo enkulumweni yakhe edabukisayo nejulile: "Sekuphuzile kakade kimi, kakade anginabo abaningi ukuba babe ... Futhi izinkanyezi ezimangalisayo angeke ngize ngizenzeke ... Ngivele ngithukuthele abaningi, Ngakwazi ukukhathala ngabantu abaningi. Kungcono ngedwa ngedwa. Kulula futhi kulula ukuphupha ... "Kule minyaka yobudala umuntu uhlangana ngokungafani nokuphazamisa phakathi kwamaphupho nokuyiqiniso. Futhi yena uyavuma ukuthi akunakwenzeka ukuwafinyelela futhi usho lokho okushiwo yilokho okufudumalayo, okufudumele, okujabule, noma ukwenqaba ukuhlola okuyiqiniso futhi aqhubeke nokuphila ngendlela efanayo, engacabangi ukuthi yena uqobo ushintshile, futhi izwe alimi ...
Ngokuvamile, ubunzima bezinga lokuphila buqhubeka nokuqinisa okuhlangenwe nakho kwangaphakathi, ukukhathazeka okukhulayo okuhlobene nekusasa. Abanye bayakwazi ukuqaphela lezi zinqubo kanye nomzila wesiteshi zibe isiteshi esakhayo. Abanye abaziqondi ngokwabo futhi bacabanga ukuthi izinkinga azikho nabo, kodwa nemvelo. Yilabo abaneminyaka engama-40 abaqala ukuvuselela impilo yabo ngokugcwele futhi bashintshe konke - umsebenzi, abangane, umndeni . Futhi-ke kukhona inkohliso yokuthi uhlangabezana ne-Renaissance, intsha yesibili ...
UMarina, eneminyaka engu-39 ubudala, waqala ukuzizwa enganeliseki ngokujulile nobuhlobo bomndeni. "Ufunani na?" - abangani babexakekile. Ngempela, umyeni uyakhathalela, uyakunakekela, uyathandeka. Konke kuhle, uma kungekhona "kodwa". UMarina wayehlale encane kakhulu, futhi manje wayefuna imali eningi, imoto entsha, izingubo ezibizayo ... Futhi umyeni wakhe uyinjiniya evamile, i-fat fat ne-balding. Ebhekile kuye, uMarina wacabanga - ingabe uyifunda naye? Ngolunye usuku wanquma ... Washada ngokushesha umyeni wakhe ngaphandle kokuqonda noma yini, washiya indodakazi endala naye, waqala ukusakaza izimonyo, wenza umsebenzi wakhe wathola umyeni omusha. Lapho eneminyaka engu-42 ubudala, waba umama futhi. Futhi, lapho indodana yami iphenduka ngonyaka, ngabona ukuthi "ibhethri lihlezi phansi." Ingane yayingathokozi, intsha - iminyaka engama-7 encane - umyeni wakhe wacasulwa ... uMarina weza kumculi wezokwelapha ukuze aqonde impilo yakhe. Wazama futhi ukuphonsa ngamatshe, engaqapheli ukuthi sekuyisikhathi sokuwaqoqa. Ngisho noma isazi sezengqondo sabheka isihawu kulo wesifazane okhangayo ochitha amandla amaningi namandla azama ukubheka abancane, ajabule futhi abaphumelele futhi ngesikhathi esifanayo befuna izimpendulo zemibuzo ephakade: "Ngingubani? Umama? Owesifazane webhizinisi ophumelelayo? Umfazi womuntu okhangayo? Noma kunjalo? "Futhi uMarina onenhlonipho ukhumbula impilo nomyeni wakhe wokuqala, elula futhi ecacile ngakho manje ayitholakali. Ucabanga ngokukwesaba ukuthi konke kudinga ukwenziwa kabusha ngomntwana, izifo zobuntwana, isikole ... Futhi impilo iyaqala ukuhluleka - yakamuva yathola ukuhlinzwa futhi ayikwazanga ukuphinde ithole ...
Isikhathi sokuphila yisikhathi lapho izingane sezivele zikhulile, lapho ukuphila kuncishisiwe futhi ungacabanga ngawe. Mayelana nempilo, umsebenzi, ukuthi kusukela ohlelweni olubalulekile namanje kungenzeka ukwazi ukubona, nokuthi yini ongayisho. Ngesinye isikhathi ukuqwashisa phakathi kokuphila kuyithuba langempela lokubalekela ebuhlotsheni obunobungozi obusekelwe ekukhethweni okudala nokungadingeki. Ngoba kule minyaka yobudala bobulili buyinto engabaluleki kangcono kunokuba "imiphakathi," eqinisekisa ubukhulu bomuntu phezu kwezinto eziphilayo.
U-Andrew wathatha u-Liza lapho eneminyaka engu-16, futhi wayeneminyaka engu-18. Uthando? Cha, ukukhathazeka nokukhulelwa okulandelayo kukaLisa. Indodakazi yazalwa. Ubunzima ukwakha ubudlelwane, futhi uma kwakungewona unina kaLisa, owasiza indodakazi yakhe futhi wamsiza endlini, bebengayikuhlala ndawonye isikhathi eside. Indodakazi yabo yashada lapho u-Andrei eneminyaka engu-38. Futhi ngokungazelelwe wabona ukuthi uLisa wayengumfazi ohluke ngokuphelele kuye. Futhi iminyaka engu-20 yokuphila kwabo, ubuhlobo buqhutshwa empikiswaneni, ukubuyisana, ubulili, izingxabano ezalandela ... Futhi nje abanayo lutho lokukhuluma ngakho. U-Liza unesithakazelo kumbukiso we-TV nezintombi. Yena-izincwadi namafilimu ajulile. U-Andrei wasuka eLisa, kodwa hhayi komunye wesifazane. Wathi: "Ngiya ekamelweni lami."
Futhi kuyiqiniso. Kule nkathi, kubaluleke kakhulu kunanini ngaphambili ukuthola, ukuthola, ukufunda ukuthi ungabona kanjani umuntu ongaziwa emhlanganweni, uqaphela ukuthi lo ngumngane omdala. Ukuphishekela, ingxabano yesigamu sokuqala sokuphila sesivele iveza izithelo. Manje kubalulekile ukulondoloza isivuno. Abanye basenesikhathi sokuhlwanyela insimu okwesibili, abanye bangenzi izingozi. Kodwa wonke umuntu uqala ukuthola amathuba amasha. Okubonakala kubonakala sengathi ukulahlekelwa - ukukhula kwezingane, ukunciphisa umsebenzi, ukwandisa isithakazelo ezweni lomuntu wangaphakathi ngokuphambene nomsebenzi womphakathi - kuvela ekubeni yimithombo ebalulekile. Sithola ukuvuthwa nokuhlakanipha, sifunda ukuthethelela abantu abaseduze futhi sihlukane nobuhlobo nalabo abangafuni ukuchitha isikhathi.
Kungumqondo ophuthumayo wesikhathi esishintshile esiwuphawu lokuthi udlulile kulolu cala. Endabeni ethi "I-Pony Yami encane," uStephen King uchaza inqubo yokuguga njengomuzwa wokuphuthuma isikhathi. Ukwelula kancane, izifundo ezingapheli esikoleni zibonisa ukuqala kokuphila, ukugcwala kwesikhathi okujabulisayo - iminyaka yobusha, lapho siphila ngokuvumelana neqiniso. Kodwa eminyakeni edlule othile uhleka phezu kwethu futhi uyasheshisa izandla zamehlo ethu, futhi isikhathi sigijimela, futhi sincane ...
Futhi, mhlawumbe, bonke labo bantu manje abaphezulu kakhulu noma baqala ukuzala kwabo, bazokwazi ukuma futhi bacabange ngabo, ngokuphila, ngabathandekayo babo ... Futhi, ngaphandle kokulibaziseka, kusasa bazophila namhlanje, manje. Ukuthanda, ukuhlupheka, ukwenza lokho okuphuphile ngakho, ukuphikisana nokubekezela, ukubeletha nokukhulisa izingane, ukubhala izithombe nomculo, funda ukushayela ... Ngenxa yokuthi ukungenzi lutho, okuzama ukukwenza ukulinda, isikhathi sebiwe empilweni. Lokhu kungukuphila, okuncishiswe ngezandla zomuntu siqu.