Izici zothando oluyimfihlo lwe-platonic

Uthando lwePlato, inkolo ehloniphekile yoMninimzi omuhle, amagama kaPetrarch noLaura, aphuma emfashini. Namuhla, indoda ekulungele ukunikela impilo yakhe enkonzweni (ukuxhaswa, usizo olungenasidingo) kunkosikazi yenhliziyo, ngaphandle kokucabanga ngocansi naye, izocatshangwa ukuthi iyimbala eluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka, engenamandla (noma nje imsola embonweni ode futhi ocansini). Encwadini yezinsikazi, inkulumo ethi "uthando lwe-platonic" ibangelwa ukuzihlanganisa nentombazane endala noma intombazane enhle kakhulu ekhanda i-snot lapho ibona i-pop star enhle. Kodwa izici zothando lwama-platonic eyimfihlo zahlala zifana nabo bonke.

Namuhla ukuzizwa kwe- platonic kuye kwaba yinto ehlezayo, ehlazekayo, efakazela ukuphikisana kwakho, ukungabonakali. Ngcono - okwesikhashana, ekubi kakhulu - okungenakuphulukiswa. Uma ungalali nanoma ubani, khona-ke akekho othanda wena. Kungakhathaliseki ukuthi awuyena umpi futhi awukwazi ukuthola lokho okufunayo. Okubi nakakhulu: hhayi kuphela umuntu obi, kodwa futhi nesiwula, obhekene nobuhlobo nendoda kuphela kumaphupho amnandi ...

Lapho ngineminyaka engu-14 ngathandana nomdlali odumile. Ukuzizwa kwe-platonic kwahlala cishe kwayishumi nesishiyagalolunye: ngesikhathi lapho abanye engifunda nabo sebekhulelwe kakade futhi benethemba lokushada, ngisabhala izinkondlo kule ncwadi enikezwe "isikhulu esihle." Futhi uma ontanga bami abathandana nabo ngokobulili bebazi ngalokhu, banganginika ukunganaki okubandayo futhi banginika umshini womuntu ongapheli ...

Kamuva, iningi lemishado yabo yokuqala yaqhekeka, abambalwa be-sexy Loliths baphendukela eminyakeni emangalisayo emakilasini omndeni ahloniphekile. Kodwa usawoti womlando awukho kulokhu, kepha ngoba ngibhala izinkondlo, izinkondlo kanye nezinkulumo ngokuhlonipha njalo, ngabuya esicukeni esivamile sokuthanda uthando, ukuhlelwa kwegazi ngothando, kube ngumlobi onesandla esihle. Umama wami, noma ubaba, noma othisha bami babengakwazi ukwenza lokho engakwenza ngothando ngenxa yezici zobumfihlo be-platonic yangasese - ukungifundisa ukuba ngisebenze njalo ngami. Ngenxa yomzwelo obonakala sengathi uyisiphukuphuku futhi ungenangqondo, engiphoqelela ukuba ngishaye ngesandla nsuku zonke, njengama-clockwork, ngaya ngemvume, ngaya emakilasini, ngathola umsebenzi kumagazini, ngaya ekolishi.

Angikhumbuli iminyaka engaki ngafunga ngayo ukuthi, emva kokukhula, angisoze ngalihleka lolu thando olungathandeki, kodwa ngigcina izwi lami. Ngoba ngiyazi ngokuqinisekile: ukubhala kwami ​​"Mina" kwazalwa kuwo. Ngendlela efana ne "I" yombongi uPetrarch, owuthando lwakhe olungathandabuzeki ngoLaura oshadile lwabeletha izintambo zezintambo, waletha ezingeni elilandelayo zonke izincwadi zeRaissance. Umehluko kuphela ukuthi, ngokungafani nami, uPetrarch wayengazi nge-sublimation - ukuguqulwa kwamandla ezocansi abe ngumkhiqizo wokudala noma okunye, "okuyigugu kakhulu emphakathini." Kulabo abangaqapheli amagugu okudala, ngizofaka amaqiniso ambalwa. Lapho sithola esikhungweni semidlalo yaseshashalazini ngangicasulwa ukuthi umuntu wami othanda ifilimu naye wafunda lapho. Kamuva, ngemva kokuxoxa naye, ngilethe leli phephandaba ephephandabeni - ngakho ngathola indawo engapheli yomsebenzi. Ngisho nangemva kwalokho, ngibhala mayelana nezintshisekelo zami zobuntombazane, ezisekelwe lapho i-movie idutshulwa khona, eyayiqala ukushintshashintsha kwemisebenzi yami ... Nansi umlando omfushane wokuguqula uthando olungaphumeleli emsebenzini ophumelelayo. Futhi uma kunjalo, ungabiza ngokuthi uthando aluphumelelanga yini?


Uma umuzwa wothando (ngenxa yokungabi nalutho ngokuvumelana nezici zobumfihlo be-platonic yangasese) awuthathi isikhathi namandla, uvame ukuchitha kokubili ukufanelekela uthando-ukuzithuthukisa, ukunyakaza. Ngiyazi intombazana okuthi, ngokulangazelela ukusondelana nesihloko samazwi kaPlato, uye wazi kahle umsebenzi omusha futhi wafinyelela eziphakeme kakhulu kuyo. Futhi ngandlela-thile emgwaqeni ukukhathazeka kwakhe okufakwe engxenyeni yegazi kwakuthathelwa indawo yethando lomzimba - kwelinye indoda ... Kodwa konke okufezile kwakhe kwahlala naye.

Kuphela nje angahlala eboleka imali kuye uma kunesidingo, kuwukuthi uhlale evula amaphrojekthi ebhizinisi, okuyinto ekhuluma ngayo "inhliziyo enhliziyweni" ekhishini futhi edansa ngaso sonke isikhathi ngamaholidi ahlangene (umyeni wakhe akayithandi ukudansa). Ukusuka kuso, uthola njalo owesifazane odingayo futhi efuna kakhulu: ukuncoma, ukuthokoza, ukuzwa ukuthi wamukelekile (konke okwesikhashana noma kamuva kuzoyeka ukuqeda amadoda). Futhi, ekwahlulela ukuthi, ngokushintsha amantombazane amaningi amachilo, umnumzane uhlala ethembeke othandweni olulodwa lwe-platonic, unelisekile ngalolu khetho - umkhonto wenkosikazi enhle enekhanda "lokukhanya". Lapha wena futhi uthande, nobungane, nebhizinisi, nokuthuthumela komphefumulo, futhi unembeza ucacile, futhi ubulili ohlangothini lokubhekana nalokho buphazamisa. Futhi into eyisiwula kakhulu engenziwa eduze kwesikhumbuzo sobuhlobo obunjalo ukulala nomunye nomunye. Esimweni esihle kunazo zonke, konke okuyohlala kunjalo, okubi kakhulu - ukukhahlela, ukuvuselela "mhlawumbe" okukhona ngesimo somfanekiso omuhle kakhulu, kuzophendukela "ngokungenjalo", okuqinisekisiwe yiqiniso elibi futhi elibi.


Futhi ekugcineni - enye i-platonic "plus". Ngomnyaka wamashumi amathathu wokuphila kwami, ngabona ngokungazelelwe ukuthi ngithandana ngokuphelele namadoda engingajabuli nawo. Ngokuphambene nalokho, umzimba wami, zonke izinzwa eziyisikhombisa nemifino zijabule ekuboneni izidalwa zesilisa ezingenakufanelekela ukuphila okujabulisayo ndawonye: ezincane, ezinomsindo omude, ezingenasisekelo, ezithandwayo, ezifisa ukuthanda (njengokuthanda kwami ​​kuqala kwefilimu!).

Ngokuqala ngangiyeka ukuhlangana, ngokuhlakanipha ngangikuthandi. Kwasala ukuhlala ekhaya futhi ubukele i-TV ... Lapha yilapho uthando lwe-platonic lwabadlali befilimu oluvivinywa eminyakeni encane lwafika ekuhlanguleni. Kulula ukuthandana nomdlali! Ngisho noma edlala isithombe somuntu omkhulu, onomusa, olula futhi ocacile ongayithandi - yonke imboni yefilimu, umdwebi wesikrini, umculi wokwenza, umqondisi usebenza ukwenza ukuba uthandane naye. Ekuqaleni kwakunjengemidlalo: kodwa ingabe ngingashintsha indlela engiyithanda ngayo futhi ngigcine omunye umuntu? Kwavela, ngiyakwazi, uma "umuntu omuhle" edlalwa, isibonelo, ngu-Brendan Fraser ...


Ngendlela , umngane wami omkhulu uthi umyeni wami ufana naye. Angicabangi kanjalo. Kodwa le nguqulo, yebo, efanelekile ukutadisha. Kuvela ukuthi uma nginezinkulungwane eziyishumi nesishiyagalolunye ngithandana neKalyagin, ngingathanda yini njalo amadoda amancane, amafutha? Futhi uma umama ohlakaniphile efuna ukugxilisa indodakazi yakhe indlela yokubhekana nendoda efanele, kufanele yini abeke amafilimu akhe noRussell Crow noKevin Costner kusukela esemncane?

Kunoma yikuphi, sekuphuzile kakhulu ukuba ngibheke le mbono kusuka ekuhlangeneni kwami. Kodwa uma nginayo indodakazi, ngokuqinisekile ngizoqhubeka nalesi sihloko.