Injabulo yomndeni

Ngokuvamile, amadoda nabesifazane abangaphezu kwezingamashumi amathathu bangabanjwa ngokuzumayo bacabanga: "Ubeka imigomo yakho, ukhuphuke, ulwela, uphumelele, futhi, cishe cishe konke ongase uphuphe ngakho ... Kodwa ngesizathu esithile akusize. Futhi awujabuli. "

Lapho ngicela abantu abanjalo ukuthi bacabange ngesikhathi esedlule sesikhathi abafeze ngayo imigomo yabo, bahlale bengakhumbuli lutho. Ngokufanelekile, inkumbulo igcina uchungechunge oluhlelekile lwezenzakalo, umuntu uzithuthuzela ngokwakhe, ukuthi okuningi sekwenzile, ingqondo iyazihalalisela ngalokho okuye kwafezwa, kodwa izinkumbulo ngokwazo "azifudumali". Futhi lokhu kuyinhloko yenkinga - impilo ayengahlali, kodwa iqhubekele, ihlangane ngokusheshisa futhi inobungozi, ngezindlela eziningi yavinjelwa, ngezindlela eziningi isiphambano safakwa. Futhi kusukela ekuphumelelweni futhi akujabuli. Futhi ngisho nezingane kanye nomndeni ngokushesha ziphenduka isimiso - namanje, umuntu "wafinyelela" emshadweni, wakhiqiza ingane, kodwa impilo eqhubekayo yinto enenqubo! Futhi usevele "ehlushwa", udinga imigomo emisha, "ukunqoba" okusha.

Sizobeka isimo sesigaba esisodwa sabantu njengemiphumela, kanti enye inqubo. Benziwa ngezindlela ezahlukene. Isazi sokusebenza kwengqondo siphumelele ekufuneni okuqhubekayo emphakathini, abazali, izihlobo: kufanele ufeze lokhu nokuthi, noma ngabe uzobhekwa njengokuhluleka. Umphumela akwazi ukuthi anganeliseka kanjani nokuthi ungubani, uhlale enganelisekile yena, ngezinga lakhe lokuphila, uhlale eqhathanisa nabanye (njengoba cishe abazali bakhe bamfanisa). Futhi yingakho kukhona njalo umuntu noma into engamvumeli ukuba aphile ngokuthula, emphoqelela ukuba abeke imigomo ephakeme futhi agijime kubo ngamandla akhe onke. Ukukhathazeka kwalesi sikhundla ukuthi umuntu onjalo akahlali enesikhathi esanele futhi efisa ukucabanga: yiyo le migomo yakhe? Futhi ingabe udinga ngempela ukuthi abe nalokho akulwela ngakho? Phela, izidingo zabo bonke zihlukile kakhulu. Futhi ngaphandle kokuba nesikhathi sokucabanga ukuthi uqobo lwakhe udinga ingcebo noma isimo esibonisiwe, noma ngisho nomndeni, umphumela uba yimpango yemibono engakwazi ngempela ukuphikisa ukufisa kwakhe okungaqondakali. Phela, noma yimuphi umuntu e-subconscious unesizinda sezifiso zangempela, uma uthanda - umsebenzi wakhe kuleli zwe. Kodwa akekho isikhathi sokucabanga ngalokhu noma.

ULiliana, owesifazane ophumelelayo webhizinisi. Umyeni wakhe uyinhlangano yebhizinisi ehloniphekile, ungumnikazi wenethiwekhi yezobuhle bezobuhle. Bobabili babefisa ukuchuma, bashesha "ukuthatha okwakhe," okuhlanganisa imali, ukudala umndeni, nokuzalwa kwengane. Futhi ngokuzumayo, eneminyaka engamashumi amathathu nanye ubudala, u-Liliana uyaqaphela ukuthi akamazi indodakazi yakhe eneminyaka eyishumi nambili, "okwesizathu esithile" aqala ukusebenzisa izidakamizwa! Futhi "ngesizathu esithile" akaqondi nakancane, kungani umyeni wakhe engamkhathaleli. Ungakwazi ukubhala kalula yonke into ayifinyelele yona, kodwa ayikwazi ngempela ukuphendula umbuzo walokho okuthandwa ngumyeni wakhe, ukuthi uyini ngempela, ukuthi uyaphi amaphupho, njengoba nje yena engumfazi ongeyena. Futhi ngosuku lwakhe lokuzalwa uyamnika wonke ama-roses afanayo, nakuba engawathandi. I-albhamu yabo igcwele izithombe ezivela emazweni angaphandle, kodwa uma ngicela ukuchaza isikhathi esithile sokuthanda, umzuzwana wobunye bangempela - ngokuzumayo uqala ukukhala. Ngoba inkumbulo ayithuli. Futhi ayilondolozi indlu ephethe izindlu ezimbili eSokolniki, noma ama-coat fur coats amathathu, noma ngisho nebhizinisi labo - emva kwalokho, alikhethiwe. Kodwa ngoba "idumile, inenzuzo, inzile."

Inkathazo nayo yonke imiphumela iyinhlanhla, ukukhathala okuvela kuzo ezibazungezile, isifiso esiqhubekayo sokushintsha abalingani (emva kwakho konke lokho / lokho kakade kunqobile, kuyadingeka okwamanje!) Futhi ukusungulwa ukuthi izwe langaphandle kufanele lihlale libapha umfutho - ama-baits amasha, ukuzijabulisa, ukuthuthumela. Ngesikhathi uMilan Kundera ebhala ukuthi ijubane lilingana ngokuqondile namandla okungaziwa. Lokhu kusho ukuthi ngokushesha esiphila empilweni, kancane kancane sikhumbula kanye nabampofu emhlabeni wethu wangaphakathi, kanti umuntu ofuna ukukugcwalisa ngokuyinhloko unciphisa izinyathelo, ujabule isinyathelo ngasinye, yonke imemori noma ukunyakaza kwengqondo, ngamunye uyabubula.

Inqubo iphinda ikhule inzalo eyakhe "Mina". Kuye, isimiso sokuthi "wazi ngokwakho" akuyona inkulumo engenalutho. Ngaphezu kokuthakazelisa kuye, akanalo isithakazelo esincane emhlabeni. Akasheshi, ngakho-ke ufunda konke okujule kakhulu kunomphikisi wakhe. Nguyena umuntu owenza inqubo engakwazi ukujabulela umlingani wakhe iminyaka eminingi futhi engazi igama elithi "ukukhwabanisa", angahlala embhedeni amahora ambalwa, afike ngesinqumo esihlakaniphile emkhakheni webhizinisi futhi avuke ngokucebile kusasa. Ungumuntu "othandekayo wekusasa", ngubani onenhlanhla, nakuba empeleni imfihlo ilula: akasheshi noma kuphi, ngakho-ke ulawula ukwazisa into esemqoka futhi asebenzise kahle amakhono akhe kanye nemisebenzi yezwe. Ifilosofi yakhe ilula: wonke umzuzu wokuphila kufanele ujabulise, ngoba okulandelayo kungenzeka kube njalo!

I-Maxim - manje isesidlangalaleni esikudingayo. Ekuqaleni, indlela yakhe yayingelula: wazitshela isikhathi eside, wenqaba ukusebenza lapho engathandi khona, waneliswa yincane. Kodwa-ke, ngomphefumulo owenza lowo msebenzi, lapho empeleni wayemthandweni, emva kwesikhathi wayekwazi ukuzibonakalisa. Futhi baqala ukutshala imali ekukhangiseni imibono yabo nezixazululo zabo. Eminyakeni embalwa kamuva, umlingani wasithola, uzimisele ukutshala imali ebhizinisini elivamile. Kwahamba kahle, kwaba nokuchuma. Ngakwazi ukuthenga indlu, ukuthola imoto. Futhi emva kwesikhathi esithile, wahlangana no "wesifazane wamaphupho." Okuthakazelisayo ukuthi uMaxim uhola indlela yokuphila evinjiwe, uhlala amahora ezithombeni, wakha izixazululo zekhompyutha kubo. Umsebenzi omningi endlini, ingane esanda kuzalwa. Futhi akasheshi noma kuphi. Kuhle ukumbheka - uyajabula.

Umncintiswano womphumela, ongaqondakali kahle, ungafaniswa nokuphendulwa kwemvelo: abantu babonakala bebalekela, bafihle ngemuva kokufeza, njengokungathi bafuna ukusho ukuthi "ngibheke, awukwazi ukungilandela, ngikunikeze konke, Nginakho konke, ngihloniphe! "Futhi kubonakala sengathi ukukhala usizo. Ngoba ngemuva kwalokho lokhu kuvame ukwesaba-ukwesaba ukungabi nalutho ngaphakathi, ukwesaba ukunganakwa abanye, futhi kubonakala sengathi umuntu onjalo akazithembi kuye - mhlawumbe uzophila njengoba efuna. Futhi wayengenandaba nokuthi abanye bacabangani. Kodwa uma kungenalo ulwazi lwangaphakathi lwakwakho, akukho mqondo wokufaneleka kwangaphakathi - khona-ke ungakwazi ukuzivikela kuphela eqinisweni ngobuhlanga emva kwemiphumela. Lapho into esemqoka ingabi yedwa nawe.