Mayelana nothando ungasho ukuthi angeke ube yihora, kodwa iminyaka, kodwa ukusho kancane, usadingeka ukwazi ukuthanda. Ukungathandi amahora, kodwa iminyaka. Sekuyiminyaka eminyaka sikhuluma ngothando nangesilinganiso esifanayo esiyithandayo. Ngothando, imibono eminingi iye yasungulwa futhi imithetho eminingi isebenza. Ngothando kukhona izinhlangothi eziningi nama-angles amaningi, futhi nsuku zonke, lapho ngibhekene nento entsha, ngiyashesha ukwabelana ngemicabango yami futhi ngiyashesha ukuthatha konke ephepheni ngezinhlamvu. Kunemicabango eminingi nezihloko eziningi ekhanda lami, futhi kunzima ukukhetha into, ngoba konke lokhu kuxhumeke kakhulu kangangokuthi akusizi ngalutho ukuhlukanisa. Uthando lungumzwelo, siphefumula uthando, ukuphefumula othandweni lomuntu nokuphefumula uthando lwethu lomuntu. Ukuthanda kahle, futhi ikakhulu lapho konke kuhamba kahle ebuhlotsheni. Futhi uma uthando lungalungile, futhi ebuhlotsheni, indoda iphakamisa isandla phezu kowesifazane wayo ?! Noma kunjalo, lesi sihloko sizohanjiswa ngesihloko esithi "ubudlova obubhekiswe kwabesifazane njengenkinga yomphakathi". Angikwazi, ngeke ngihlanganyele izindaba zangempela mayelana nodlame nemicabango mayelana nokuthi yini ebangela ubudlova nokuthi ungayigwema kanjani.
Indoda ephakamisa isandla phezu kowesifazane yindoda enhle kakhulu futhi ephansi kunazo zonke, engafanele ifakwe isihloko esinjalo njengendoda. Indoda yileyo kanye nendoda, ukuze akwazi ukukhuthazelela nokukhuthazelela noma yikuphi ukukhohlisa owesifazane oyisiphukuphuku. Indoda kufanele ikwazi ukukhuthazela, kodwa, naphezu kwalokhu thina besifazane, ngezinye izikhathi singenakubekezeleleka futhi singenasiphelo sokuthi ngaphandle kwesandla somuntu onzima, kahle, akakwazi nje ukukwenza. Noma mhlawumbe ungenza ngaphandle, kodwa ezimisweni zethu zokuziphatha, ubudlova obhekene nowesifazane sekuvele kushintshiwe noma kulungiswe nje kuphela, ukuthi kuqala ukuguqula inkinga yomphakathi ibe yinto evamile?
Kubantu abaningi ukuphakamisa isandla ngokumelene nowesifazane kubhekwa njengesenzo esiphansi, engikuhlonipha ngaso lawo madoda - kuthiwa abhekwa njengamadoda aqinile. Futhi labo abangenakunzima futhi ngaphakathi kwemingcele evamile ukuba benze lesi senzo kubhekwa njengobuthakathaka ngokuziphatha, uma bengalondolozi amandla abo ngokushaya abesifazane.
Muva nje ngahlangana nabangane bami endala, sasebenza ndawonye. Bakhulu kakhulu kunami, futhi sebevele babone izinto eziningi ekuphileni kwabo. Lapho bengibuza ukuthi ngabe ngihlangana nomunye umuntu, ngiphendule, futhi ngaqala inganekwane yami, indaba yezinganekwane ngomqondo weqiniso wezwi, ngiphelele kakhulu ebuhlotsheni ukuthi ngezinye izikhathi lapho ngicabanga ngakho, kuba yinto esabekayo. Kungakhathaliseki ukuthi izilimi ezinobungozi ziyi-jinxed, kodwa ngiyabonga uNkulunkulu konke kuphelele kimi. Ngokufanelekile, hhayi ngezindinganiso ezithile, ezisungulwe yizingonyama ezithile zezwe, ezombono wazo ziba ngumthetho. Cha, nginemiqondo yami nemithetho yami, ngisho noma engenayo isaziso futhi kungekho penthouse, akunandaba nami, ukuthula kwengqondo nokuzwana ebuhlotsheni bethu - yilokho esikudingayo ukuba sikuhloniphe nokuthi yini esiyidingayo ukuze sifinyelele. Ngikhuluma nabangane bami abadala, ngafunda ukuthi labo abathandekayo babo babevame ukuphathwa ubudlova, futhi manje omunye wabo ubalekela inganekwane, esaba ukuthi izindaba ezinhle ziqala, kuyilapho omunye ehlala efuna amaphutha athile. Ukulalela indaba kaLily, indlela umfana wakhe omthandayo ngayo nokuthi ugijimela kanjani ngemuva kwesitimela lapho emshiya, ukuthi wamemeza kanjani emgwaqweni ongazange akwazi ngaphandle kwakhe, ngethukile ngethuka. Ngokuvamile bagijima ngemuva kwesitimela, becela ukuhlala futhi bangashiyi kuphela e-cinema, noma mhlawumbe angizange ngiye esiteshini isikhathi eside. Mina, ngimangala lapho ngimlalela, ngacabanga, owesifazane udinga ini? Uma esesesihogweni, lapho othandekayo wakhe emshaya, futhi eboshiwe ibhethri engavumi ukuhamba noma yikuphi, amaphupho enkondlo lapho eyokwenziwa khona, futhi uma ephila njengenganekwane futhi ethathwa ezandleni zakhe, uhlezi esitimeleni eqhuma endaweni ethile kanzima izwe lapho liyophinde lishaywe khona, nakuba lingekho ngokomzimba, kodwa ngokuziphatha.
Wayejwayele ukuhlangabezana nendodana kaPapa, ubaba wakhe owayengumqondisi wefektri, futhi wayenezindlu zokubheka izindlu, kodwa wayengenawo umphefumulo, wamshaya futhi wamhleka usulu ngangokunokwenzeka. Wayeyibheka enye indondo. Futhi ngandlela-thile ebalekela kuye, akesabi okuthile okuhle, akanakho okuthile. Ngokufanayo, akanayo ukwelashwa okunjalo naye, ononya futhi ophansi. Ngalokho waphunyuka emalungeni. Owesifazane kufanele abe njengeplastiki, hhayi kwabanye, kodwa yena ngokwakhe. Kumele ajwayele ukujwayela impilo enhle ngemuva kokuphila okubi, futhi kusukela embi kufanele agijimise futhi ayigweme ngazo zonke izindlela. Ngemuva kwalokho, sonke siyizinkosikazi futhi sifanele isikhulu sethu kanye nenkulumo yethu yamnandi, lapho kukhona uthando nesidlo sakulungele. Futhi uma ucabanga ngakho, impilo iyindabakwane, kuphela okuncane futhi engalungiswanga. Emiphilweni yethu kukhona abantu abathandekayo, njengabathandekayo bokuqala abazama ukusibopha ngamaketanga futhi bangasibonisi ukukhanya okumhlophe, njengoba kukhona abathakathi njengamantombazane abanobukhwele abakha intukuthelo abakha zonke izinhlobo zezintuthwane ngemuva kweminyango yabo bese bemomotheka. Kukhona nezikhulu ezisisusa ezandleni zabantu ababi, kodwa, ngeshwa, impilo ayiyona enembile njengenganekwane futhi konke akuphelelanga, futhi akusebenzi ngaso sonke isikhathi "futhi baphila ngokujabula njalo." Le ndaba yasungulwa ngabantu ukuze banakekele imiphefumulo yabo emelekile kanye nezinhlawulo ezikhubazekile, kodwa ukuphila kungaqaphela uma umuntu engesabi ukuthanda.
Umngane wami wesibili uhlala nomyeni omuhle olindele abathembekile bakhe ngetafula elimboziwe kanye nokugeza okugcwele. Uhlala ebuka noma yikuphi ukuhluleka kanye neziphambeko kuye, ulindele ukukhashelwa nokuxabana, kodwa konke ngeke kulinde. Kulowo nalowo wethu kukhona amaphutha, kodwa lokhu akuyona isono, sidalwe yilokho, sivame ukwenza amaphutha, ngoba singabantu. Yiqiniso, emva kokuphila okude, okubuhlungu ne-monster, kunzima ukujwayela impilo enhle, ngoba sekuvele kuhleliwe, kodwa kudingeka ukwazi ukuvuselela. Udinga ukwazi ukukhohlwa okubi futhi wamukele okuhle. Ngamunye wethu empilweni yethu uhlupheka ngendlela yakhe, futhi emva kokuhlupheka konke, ipharadesi ilindele, futhi wonke umuntu unayo ipharadesi lakhe. Ngangilalela ngeso lengqondo njengoba esaba zonke iziphazamiso zesandla sakhe, nayo yonke inhlangano ebukhali, elinde ukushaywa, kodwa kukhona ukuphela kwayo yonke into, impilo embi futhi. Wonke umuntu unelungelo lokuthandana nenjabulo, kuphela thina asikwazi ukuwamukela ngaso sonke isikhathi, ngoba sesaba ukulimaza ubuso noma emuva.
Yebo, ngiseyingane, kodwa ngifunda emaphutheni wabangane bami nabangane bami abadala. Bakhulu kunami iminyaka engaba yishumi, kodwa bangifundisa, ngisho nangingazi lutho, kodwa ngifunda, futhi ngabona ukuthi akudingekile ukubukeka kabi, ngakho ngiyabhala ngakho, okuyokwazi ukukufundisa. Ungaboni futhi ungalindeli okubi. Ngiyazisa othandekayo wami, futhi ngithemba ukuthi ngizoba naye kuphela. Ngingasho ukuthi konke kuhamba kahle, ngoba asikaze sibhekane nonyaka wonke ngomsila, kodwa sibona nsuku zonke. Uma ngivame ukumbona, ngimkhumbula kakhulu. Ngiyajabula ukuthi ekugcineni ngithole umqondo wami, ngisho nangaphandle kwezindlu zangaphandle futhi ngingenazo zomsindo, kodwa ngiyajabula ngakho. I-penthouse ne-audi bazoba, kepha kamuva. Uma kungenjalo ngisho nepenthouse hhayi audi, ake kube lula, kodwa into esemqoka kuyoba, siyoba nekusasa nalo. Angifuni ukucabanga ukuthi into enhle ifihliwe ngemuva kokuthile okuhle. Makangaboni njengoBrad Pitt, akusilo uhlobo lwami, makangabi mnandi, futhi amvumele abe neziphambeko nezibazi ebusweni bakhe, kodwa ngithemba ukuthi ubuso bakhe buyinto ebaluleke kunazo zonke ebuhlotsheni bethu nasempilo yami. Uma ngabe nginamahloni embuthanweni wabangane bami, manje ngizizwa ngikhululekile, ngoba ngiyazi ukuthi abanye bangenzani. Ngiyazi ukuthi uyangithanda kangakanani, futhi ngimthanda ngendlela efanayo. Kimi, ekugcineni konke okufanayo nemibono yabanye, ngiyaziqhenya ngaye kanye nami. Makube khona amaphutha kuwo, ngoba ngiyazi ukuthi bangaphakathi kimi. Zizo zonke abantu, futhi azikho ezihle. Vumela abantu bacabange ukuthi ubuhle obunjalo butholakala kuleso "monster", kodwa ngiyazi ukuthi yini engitholile kuyo futhi ngiyayithanda kakhulu. Futhi uma amanye amantombazane efunda ukungaboni ngaphandle, kodwa emphefumulweni, ngicabanga ukuthi angeke kube khona amantombazane angathokozile futhi bekungeke kube khona izinyembezi nokucindezeleka, kodwa bekuyoba khona kuphela amehlo aqhakazile ngenjabulo nokumamatheka okukhulu. Kubalulekile ukuthi ukwazi ukubuka ebusweni, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi kuhle noma cha, umphefumulo kufanele ube mnandi.