Ubuhlobo banamuhla phakathi kwendoda nowesifazane

Ngokuhamba kwesikhathi, konke kuguquka. Ngicabanga ukuthi kungenzeka yini ukuthi izindinganiso ebuhlotsheni phakathi kwendoda nowesifazane ziye zashintsha? Yini imibhangqwana eshadile yamanje ehlala? Yini eletha abantu abasha ndawonye futhi yini esekela uthando lwabo? Yini ekhuthaza izenzo zabantu? Kubonakala sengathi ubuhlobo besikhathi samanje phakathi kwendoda nentombazane ayifuni lutho olubi futhi luyinkimbinkimbi ngokwayo. Kukhona, namakhaza ayo ekhanda, esiyeka ukuwabona lapho ebukeka khona, kungukuthi - ngotshwala ubhiya, okuyinto ngobuciko engakwazi ukubekelela enye yezintandokazi zakhe. Futhi konke kuhle. Kwakukhona ojwayelene nabo, izinsuku zaqala, ukubanga kuqala, ukusondelana kokuqala .... futhi, ngemva kwesonto, konke kwase kushintshiwe kakade. Kungani? Awuthandanga ucansi? Ingabe ngezinye izikhathi uhleka embhedeni? Ingabe njalo ugqoka izingubo ezimnyama?

Owesifazane uhle, uhlakaniphile, ujabule. Ngaphumelela enyuvesi, ngisebenza emsebenzini othembisayo, mhlawumbe nginefulethini noma imoto, futhi ngezinye izikhathi kokubili. Le ndoda iyisiwula, ngokusobala hhayi uBrad Pitt, kodwa hhayi i-quasi-modal. Uhlala ngokwehlukana nabazali bakhe, uyazi ukuthi angabhekana kanjani nokuthandana. Kodwa, maye, bodwa. Isizathu sini? Ngempela, banakho konke futhi, ngokuvamile, bafeze lokhu ngokwabo. Ukuthobeka? Ukungabi nesikhathi? Ukungaqiniseki ngobuhle bakho? Ukwesaba ubuhlobo?

Noma enye inketho - wathandana naye, wayeyinto yonke kuye. Kuzuzile, ngokuwela abafakizicelo abaningi, kodwa-kuphelile. Ngesizathu esithile, wayeka ukumthakazelisa. Futhi kwaqala: ukucasuka, ubugovu, ukukhethwa kwe-nit. Futhi ngani? Ingabe kukhona okushintshile kuwo? Cha, usengumuntu ofanayo naye. Ingabe lokho kushintshwa izinwele kuguquliwe. Uvele eqonda ukuthi "lokhu" sekuvele kuye, futhi wanezela isibonelo kwizibalo - asijabuleli lokho esinakho. Kungani singaziboni ngokubaluleke nakakhulu? Lona "okwamanje" ebuhlotsheni?

Kodwa uma ucabanga ngakho, lezi yizona zonke izinkinga ezifakiwe kakhulu! Emva kwakho konke, akusikho okungakanani okuthola, lokho okusebenzayo! Hhayi ukuthi yimiphi imisipha oyikhuni futhi yiyiphi engayifuni! Futhi akusho ngisho nokuthi uhlala nomama okhubazekile noma ngokwehlukana ekamelweni elincane le-nehily elinjalo. Kuphela kuwe! Sabe sesiba namahloni ngokwengeziwe, sathola ukungaqiniseki okuningi; sicabanga ukuthi kufanele sibe ngcono kunathi. Futhi incazelo? Yini eguqukile? Konke okufanayo, sifuna ukuthanda nokuthandwa. Ukwakha umndeni, noma okungenani isithakazelo somphakathi, ukwenza izingane futhi uphile ngokujabula njalo. Ngenxa yokuthi singaqiniseki, siyabafuna labo abaseduze. Ngenxa yalokho, sinamahloni okudalula thina. Kodwa kulula kakhulu - kufanele ube ngokwakho! Yilokho okudinga owesilisa nowesifazane.

UKsenia Ivanova , ikakhulukazi indawo