"Ukukhulelwa, izindaba mayelana nokubeletha" yisihloko sendaba yethu yanamuhla, lapho ngizokutshela khona ngokuhlangenwe nakho komngani wami.
Lapha cishe zonke izinyanga eziyisishiyagalolunye zokukhulelwa kwami sekuphelile, futhi ngesikhathi sokwamukela okokugcina umjozi wezifo zamasosha wathi kimi: "Konke, phakamisa isikhwama, ulungiselele ngengqondo, ngolunye usuku kufanele ubelethe!". Ngabuyela ekhaya ngomuzwa wokujabula wokuthi ngizohlangana ngokushesha nomntanami, lesi sikhathi eside sokulinda siphelela ekugcineni. Kodwa lapho ngiqaphela futhi ngiqonda ukuthi ngizobeletha maduzane, umuzwa wokuthokozisa kancane kancane wenziwa esikhundleni sezwe. Ngabona ukuthi nganginovalo kakhulu. Ngokushesha ngikhohliwe zonke izinto ezimangalisayo ezahamba nami phakathi nalezi zinyanga eziyisishiyagalolunye: injabulo yokuqala lapho ngithola ukuthi ngilindele ingane; ilungiselelo lezingane; ukuthenga izingubo zomntwana; igama lokukhetha. Inhloko yayigcwele umcabango owodwa - ukuzala, kubi kakhulu!
Ngesaba isimo se-coward kanye nobuhlungu. Futhi wayeyesaba ubuhlungu bokubeletha kakhulu, nakuba ayefuna ukuzala ngokwemvelo. Ukwesaba kwami nakho kwaphakanyiswa ukubuka ngesikhathi samafilimu amaningi lapho owesifazane ngesikhathi sokubeletha kumelwe ukuba wamemeza (akazange akhamuluke, kodwa umphimbo ngaso sonke isikhathi). Yebo, nezintombi, "amantombazane", "bonke abathandanayo", bekungaba buhlungu ukuzikhuthazelela, nokuthi isikhathi eside kangakanani lesi sihogo siqhubekile, ukuthi ukuphela noma ukuphefumula kungabonwa.
Konke lokhu, okwenziwe, akuzange kungene ekutheni nginethemba lami nesimo sengqondo esihle. Kodwa awukwazi ukuya esibhedlela ngamadolo aguqa. Ngokwesaba kwami kwakudingeka ngenze okuthile. Futhi izinsuku ezimbalwa ezisele ngakudingeka ngifunde izincwadi ezihlukahlukene ngokufuna amagama athandekayo "ukuzala akulimazi." Yiqiniso, angikaze ngithole okufana nalokhu, noma kunjalo, ngisakuqinisekisa ulwazi mayelana noshintsho, izindaba mayelana nokubeletha. Angizange ngibalekele ukwesaba kwami ubuhlungu, ngiyiqhube noma ngicabange nje. Ngokuphambene nalokho, nganquma ukucabanga ngakho bese ngibeka emashalofini. Futhi yilokho enginakho.
Okokuqala, ngamukela futhi ngaqaphela ukuthi ngizolimala. Kusobala ukuthi kwakungekho icala elilodwa emlandweni owesifazane owabeletha engenabuhlungu. Kodwa! Ngomqondo wangempela wezwi, ngeke kube khona ubuhlungu obungenakubekezelelwa. Yebo, kuzolimaza, kodwa, futhi, ukubekezeleleka. Phela, umuntu ngamunye uhlukile ngendlela yakhe futhi ngamunye unomkhawulo wayo wokuzwela. Futhi anginakuzaza ukuthi kuwo wonke umuntu okhonkolo uMvelo uyokunikeza ukuhlupheka okuningi njengoba lokhu noma lokho okuzokwazi ukubhekana nakho. Akusekho.
Kuleli phuzu, ungabheka isikhundla senkolo, ethi uNkulunkulu uthanda wonke umuntu. Sonke senziwe nguMdali, futhi Yena uyasithanda sonke ngokulinganayo. Ukubeletha kuyindlela eyabonwa nguYe. Yena, njengoMdali onothando, wayengeke athumele izingane zakhe, ukuhlupheka okungenakubekezela. Uma kungenjalo, wonke umqondo wothando, lapho inkolo isekelwe khona, sekuyisikhathi eside kuvezwe.
Futhi kusukela embonweni wezokwelapha, umuntu angasho ukuthi umzimba ngamunye unikezwa "uhlelo lwe-analgesic" olulawula ukuzwa kwezinhlungu. Uma kuba buhlungu kakhulu, izidakamizwa ezifana ne-morphine ziqala ukukhululwa, ezinciphisa ukuzwa komzimba. Kunjengoba kwakuyi-anesthesia emele.
Okwesibili, ngabona ukuthi ngiyesaba ukufa ngesikhathi sokubeletha, njengoba kwakunjalo eNkathini Ephakathi. Kodwa-ke, ukwesaba kwanyamalala maduzane ekuqapheliseni ukuthi isayensi nobuchwepheshe bebude kakhulu. Okulandelayo kimi kuyoba ochwepheshe abaqeqeshiwe abazobona, uma kukhona okungahambi kahle, futhi ngokuhamba kwesikhathi kuzokwenza usizo oludingekayo.
Okwesithathu, ngiyeke ukulalela wonke amantombazane "enomusa" abengaba "u-ah-ah!", Nginqume ukuthi ngabe ngizohluka, ngoba ngangilungele ngokwengqondo. Ukuzizwa kahle ngokomzwelo kakade kuyisikhulu esikhulu ekuvivinyeni okunzima. Futhi indaba yomunye wabomakhelwane bami, owasekuqaleni kokuzalwa, ubukele ifilimu ephathelene nabesifazane abahlushwa ama-fascists emakamu okuhlushwa phakathi neMpi Yase-Great Patriotic, yangikhombisa ekuzidaleni "uhlobo lomncintiswano wezinhlungu," okungenakubekwa okubi ukuhlushwa. Kulokhu, umakhelwane, lapho ephelelwe amandla, wayecabanga ukuthi abesifazane besemakamu babehlupheka ngenxa ye-Motherland yedwa, ngakho wayengeke yini abe nesineke kwengane yakhe.Kwadingeka ngicabange futhi ngingaqonda kanjani konke okushiwo ngaphambili, ngaphambi komcimbi othakazelisayo okwenzekile. Kodwa lapho kuqale ukulwa, ngaya esibhedlela ngokuphelele ngithulile futhi nginethemba lokuthi konke kuyoba kuhle!