Uqala ukuthanda abanye abantu - hhayi nje abafana besigaba esilandelayo, kodwa abafundi abadala, amadoda angempela. Futhi manje ubonakala uhle, uhlakaniphile, unomusa, kodwa awusenaso isoka. Futhi izintombi, ezibonakala zingekho kangcono kunakho, zigijima ebusuku ukuze zihlangabezane nezinkabi zazo, zikuphonsa yodwa yedwa nge-melodrama enenhliziyo e-TV noma ingoma evuselela umphefumulo ekhanda. Ucabanga ukuthi: "Ngineminyaka engu-18 futhi ngisengenamfana, yini okufanele ngiyenze ngalokhu!"
Okokuqala, ungazikhohlisi. Ngamaphesenti angu-18, amantombazane amaningi adlala ama-hormone, ngenxa yokuthi uphuthukisa konke. Noma yikuphi ukuphazamiseka okuncane kungabonakala njengengozi enkulu, noma yikuphi ukubona komuntu omuhle ongayithatha ukubonakaliswa kothando lwakhe oluyimfihlo, nanoma yikuphi ukuphawula okubalulekile kwabazali ngokuphazamisa empilweni yakho ozimele, futhi uqala ukucindezeleka: "Ngineminyaka engu-18 futhi angizange ngine isoka ... mhlawumbe kukhona okungahambi kahle nami . " Futhi uma uhlala ukhululekile, kubonakala emehlweni akho, indlela yokukhuluma, izenzo. Amantombazane afana namantombazane alula, ongakhuluma nabo ngokuthakazelisayo, futhi ngokulandelayo ngeke alayishe izinkinga zabo. Kumantombazane anjalo ajabulisayo, abafana bahudula.
Okwesibili, ungakhathazeki ngokuthola umfana. Inkulumo ethi "Ubani ofuna - ozothola" kufanelekile uma ubuka okwesibili, isibonelo, isisindo sesibili, kodwa hhayi uma kuziwa ekuzweleni kwangempela (uthando?) Uma uqala ukushisa ngomlilo oshisayo lapho ubona inkampani izingane ezincane ezincane, futhi wathwala wonke umuntu ukuba abone ukuthi ufanelwe yini wena, la madoda ayenesaba futhi abaleke njengabanogwaja abavela kwinduna yamabhubesi. Kungcono uthuthukise umhlaba wakho wangaphakathi, ufunde izincwadi, usebenzise i-yoga, uhlanganyele emisebenzini ye-amateur, ngezwi, uhlakulele, futhi ngenxa yalokho uzothola, ngaphezu kokuthakazelisa kwakho, isimo sensizwa yakho ethandekayo, hhayi insizwa ekhungethweyo, uzoba nokuxhumana okubanzi, kunomuntu othakazelisayo kuwe, futhi ngisho nezithakazelo ezifanayo.
Ungabi nendaba. Ngokuqinisekile, unesikhwama sonke semfanelo enhle esitshala kuwe nawe, nabazali bakho nothisha. Kodwa shiya lo mfana ukuthola lezi zimfanelo, futhi ungazigabisi ngabo emhlanganweni wokuqala. Insizwa ingacabanga nje ukuthi ayifanele yini owesifazane ohlakaniphile onjengowe, noma uzokhetha ukuthi awukho uhlakaniphile nhlobo, ngakho-ke, u-egoist ovamile, futhi mhlawumbe ngeke aphinde avele ekugcineni kwakho.
Isimiso semvelo. "Wonke umuntu unayo, kodwa angikwenzi." Ngonyaka oneminyaka engu-7 ubudala, kukhona icala elihle lepensela esikoleni, ngo-10 - idoli langempela le-Barbie, ngo-14 - ikhompyutha, futhi ngemva kwesikhathi esincane: "Ngineminyaka engu-18 futhi angizange ngine isoka - kuyinhlekelele ..." Waqonda ukuthi ngithini.
Ungasheshi izinto. Khuluma ngengubo emhlophe kanye nesigqoke esenziwe ngezimbali, konke okuthandayo, kodwa ngezintombi, hhayi ngesoka elingenzeka. Esigabeni sokuqala sobudlelwane, amagama anjalo angesabisa lo mfana (yebo, kubonakala sengathi isigamu sethu esinamandla somuntu singabantu abesaba), uzovele acabange ukuthi bafuna ukumhlukumeza, bamphoqe ukuba ashade, bese ehlukanisa, futhi iminyaka eminingi emkhiphe ngaphandle , alimony. Yileyo ndlela ozoyenza ngayo ukuba abe yinhle emehlweni akhe, evele ephupha phezulu.
Uma usuvele unomuntu ozobhapathizwa ngesimo esiphakeme sensizwa yakho, udinga ukuthola ngaye ngangokunokwenzeka. Ngenhlanhla, manje kunamanethiwekhi amaningi omphakathi, ngokwemali yolwazi ngomuntu othize ofana ne-database ye-CIA. Ungabona izithakazelo zakhe, ukuzilibazisa, noma yini! Futhi ngesikhathi sokuqala, ngokungazelelwe kuvela ukuthi unezinto eziningi ezifanayo!
Iphuzu elihle kakhulu. Ubulili. Awukho futhi ngaphansi kwezimo azama ukuthola umfana ngokulala naye! Uzothola idumela lentombazane enengqondo, ukuyibeka ngobumnene, nokuhlazisa ukuziqhenya kwakho. Futhi noma, uma uNkulunkulu engavumeli, ulokhu wenza lokhu, ngisho noma "usizo olufanayo" lwenzeka kaningi, ungakhohlwa ukuthi awuyintombazane kuye, njengoba engakuhloniphi, futhi engakhathaleli, kodwa nje uyanelisa Ngaphezu kwalokho, lo mngane wakho angase aqale ukuhlangana nomunye intombazane, futhi uzohlala emgodini ophukile ngenhliziyo ephukile nento edonsa idumela.
Kungcono ukuba yedwa kunanoma ubani. Noma nomuntu ongeke ube nakho. Isonto, mhlawumbe ababili benu bangenza sengathi unesithakazelo emphakathini walomuntu. Futhi-ke? Mhlawumbe indoda inhle, kodwa ayikho izinhlanzi. Konke okufanayo, ukuhlukanisa ngokushesha noma kamuva, okwamanje kuphela awukwazi ukucasula umuntu omuhle nganoma yini. Futhi sesivele sisho ukuthi uhlakaniphile, futhi ngisho ngeke uphekise izimpukane, hhayi lokho komuntu ohluphekile.
Uthando ngephutha luvuka uma ungalindeli nhlobo. Futhi kwenzeka. Ngisho nami kwenzeka. Kubonakala sengathi usuvumelanisile kakade, ukuthi kukhona okunye, futhi akekho isikhathi sokuthandana, nakho konke okusemabhizinisini, futhi futhi, futhi uhlangana endaweni ethile esitolo, emnyangweni wezinsimbi zokugcoba kanye namabhulashi, uthando lwakho lokuphila. Futhi izinyanga ezintathu ushada.
Uyazi, uma uneminyaka engu-18, ngeke nje uzwe imibala yokuphila okungaphezu kwesisodwa, kodwa uzishise ngokwakho. Kunoma yikuphi, lesi yisikhathi lapho uthola khona ulwazi lokuphila, ufunde emaphutheni, isipiliyoni nesiphansi, uthando, ukudabuka, ukuhleka, uzibheke. Lezi yizinsuku ezihamba phambili kakhulu ekuphileni kwakho konke, uma, ngokubanzi, awubophekile kunoma ubani, ngaphandle kwabazali, uma uhlala wena, uma ungazenza izenzo eziphambene kakhulu, uzilungise ephepheni lezithombe. Phila ngalesi sikhathi kalula futhi ngokugqamile, ungakhathazeki ngezinto ezincane, futhi okubaluleke kakhulu, qaphela ukuthi kukhona into okufanele uyikhumbule.